Where Were You When the World Stopped Turning?

This morning, I woke up earlier than usual because the HVAC technician was coming to inspect the AC system in our home. I opened Facebook to read a reflection on September 11. That put me in mind of the Allan Jackson song, “Where Were You (When the World Stopped Turning)?”

Then I saw the Budweiser ad with the Clydesdales.

And I thought, “Twenty-four years.”

Twenty-four years ago, I was in my Newberry High School classroom, room 102, getting ready for a full day of classes. During the first period, we watched the news on TV (was it Channel One?) and moved into the lesson. It was an ordinary day. I don’t remember whether we had moved to alternate-day block scheduling yet. I don’t even remember what English course I was teaching during that first period. The second period began with a room of twelve tenth-grade boys. English II. The lesson started (who knows what I was teaching that day!), but around 9:30, the English department chair interrupted and told me to turn on the TV. I did, and we watched–in horror and shock–as the second plane hit the World Trade Center tower, as the Twin Towers crumpled to the ground. One of the boys, leaning forward on his elbows on his desk, breathed, “Man, that was cool.” After a second student chastized him, he explained, “It’s like seeing something you would see in a movie. I won’t forget that moment, or that exchange.

September 11, 2001, is my JFK moment. Allan Jackson wrote, “Where were you when the world stopped turning?” In my classroom with those tenth-grade boys, perched on my stool. Literature, grammar, writing, reading–for the rest of the day, none of these were important. No one cared about state standards, PET evaluations, lesson plans, or anything else related to “school.” We weren’t prepared for this. I grew up during the Vietnam and Civil Rights Eras. I watched the war play out on TV every night with Chet Huntley and David Brinkley on the Six O’clock News on WIS-TV, the local NBC affiliate. And I heard about the Irish Republican Army’s attacks on England as Northern Ireland sought their independence from England. Terrorism was something that happened overseas in other countries; it couldn’t happen here in America. Oh, there were riots here in America as protests against the war and for civil rights turned violent, but these weren’t acts of terrorism.’

But on 9/11/2001, something changed. The United States became a target for terrorists. First, it was the Twin Towers of the World Trade Center, then the Pentagon, and finally a field in Pennsylvania, where American passengers on a flight headed toward Washington crashed the plane so that it would not strike the third target–the White House. “No greater love has any man than to lay down his life for another.” (That’s not the exact quote, but you get the gist.)

We thought 9/11 brought Americans together, unified us as “one nation… indivisible”. Today, the world has stopped turning for different reasons. We are no longer united in one purpose. Sometimes, I think we look for reasons for division–race, creed, nationality, color, sexual orientation, political ideology–the list is endless. We may put “All Are Welcome” on our churches’ signs, but what we really mean is “All who think and believe like I do are welcome here.” We may live in a world more connected than ever by our cell phones and apps and by social media, but in many ways, we are more separated and isolated individually than every before.

Where were you when the world stopped turning? I’m not sure the world has started turning again.

Allan Jackson ends his song with the reminder from 1 Corinthians 13 that we have been given three gifts, faith, hope, and love, but the greatest of these gifts is love. I want a world where love is our greatest gift to each other.

Summer Feelings

The photography “challenge” for the Kinship Elemental Life practice circle has been to photograph what summer feels like. How do you capture the feelings of upheaval and unrootedness that I’m feeling this summer? What represents those feelings? How do you express feelings caused by destruction and dismantling?

There is a thistle in the front yard. Three weeks ago, it was in bloom with vibrant purple blossoms. Last week, those blossoms were white, fluffy seed heads. Today, those seed heads look bedraggled and stringy after the rainstorms of last week. The weather caused an upheaval.

Somewhere, though, in this weather event, there is a necessity. Those seeds need to spread to propagate. Nature does remain in statis.; it moves; it changes. There are natural upheavals: thunderstorms, hurricanes, tornadoes, earthquakes, volcanic eruptions. Sometimes, they are gentle: the dandelion and thistle seeds blowing in a breeze. Othertimes, it is two twin tree trunks still standing in the midst of lush greenness, even though they are dead. One day, those trunks will fall.

There is an old hymn that begins, “Built on a rock, the church doth stand.” A few lines later, the hymnist wrote, “crumbled are spires in every land.” The world is not static, either; it is in a constant state of change, destruction, and rebuilding, renewing itself. Structures and systems crumble and collapse. William Butler Yeats wrote in his poem “The Second Coming,” “Things fall apart; the center cannot hold.” And sometimes, it seems that everything devolves into chaos.

How, then, do I find a place of “soft belonging” amid upheavals and uprootedness?

I look for beauty. There is beauty in the twin trunks of dead trees reaching up out of the lush green vegetation around them. Life and death coexist. You can’t have one without the other. You can’t have the heat and “fire” of summer without the chill of winter. Ice doesn’t exist without water; steam doesn’t exist without fire. The fire of upheaval may be necessary. “Things fall apart; the center cannot hold.” Maybe a new center forms. The seed head of the thistle gives way, and the seeds scatter, only to germinate somewhere else and form a new center.

Upheaval will give way to peace. Life will give way to death. Death will give way to resurrection.

Such is the circle of life.

H, I, and J–A Day to Catch Up

I am behind by three letters. My husband had to have a medical procedure this week, which threw off my schedule and routines for writing. We did get a very positive result from the procedure, and all is well.

The letters this time around are H for harmony, I for inspiration, and J for joy. Ho boy, what letters!

When I think of harmony, naturally, I think of music and the pleasing blend of notes into chords and melodies. I think of the old, traditional hymns I grew up singing in the Lutheran church, of old-time gospel music, and a capella groups like Home Free and Straight No Chaser and Pentatonix. But then, I also think of harmony among people, that quality of “getting along” and how that kind of harmony seems to be a thing of the past, and I wonder how we can get that notion back. I just know that I will do what I can to live my truth and seek that sweet place of harmony with others as I do.

What inspires me? And who inspires me? I am inspired by beautiful writing–John Donne’s poetry, especially the love poetry written to his wife. “A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning” is one of my favorites. Emily Dickinson’s playfulness: can’t you just see the “narrow fellow in the grass”?; Mary Oliver and her poetry of nature. Who cannot be inspired? After a six-week Bible study combining the art of Vincent van Gogh and the Gospel lessons for the six Sundays in Lent, Maundy Thursday, and Good Friday, I am inspired to see the world through the eyes of the artist. And there are people–living–who inspire me to be better and to speak out. One such person is Anne Lamott. Though not a writer of religion per se, she calls me to see the world through the eyes of the Christian and to be an activist in whatever small way I can.

What is more joyful that watching a three-year-old run around his backyard with a bubble blower, making a bubble trail behind him? I gave my grandson a Bluey bubble “machine” on Sunday as an early Easter gift, and he had to go outside to make bubbles. And it was a joyful sight! There is joy in the crop of yellow dandelion flowers in the yard. (I don’t care that they are considered weeds!) The birds chirping in the holly tree by the house or flitting away from the feeders when I go outside, the wind blowing ripples across the pond, bunnies hopping away when I drive up in the yard–all of these bring joy, and that’s just the beginning.

By not starting on April 1, I honestly don’t know if I am at the half-way point in this 30 day challenge, but I’m close. I just have to stick with it for a couple more weeks! For the rest of the day, I will think about these three letters and their words: harmony, inspiration, and joy. Maybe they are more connected than I thought when I started writing this afternoon.

Blogging Challenge the April A-Z Challenge

Okay. I’m late to the party. That’s nothing new. I had forgotten about the A-Z Challenge until this morning as I wrote my almost daily morning pages. I say “almost daily” because I don’t always write on the weekends. My Monday to Friday routines are thrown off because my husband usually has the TV on before I emerge from the bedroom in the mornings. I have trouble concentrating on writing when the TV is on (but not so much when I’m listening to music).

So, on April 8, I will begin the A to Z challenge. This year’s theme is gratitude for the community, specifically the blogging community. I have a few folks who “like” my reading updates when I post them monthly. But I don’t really blog for an audience (though it’s nice to have readers!); I write for myself.

Today, the letter is A.

The quote for the first challenge day is a really good one, and to begin the April challenge, the focus is on the people who make us happy. I am grateful for some special people in my life. There is my husband of 41 years this June and our two adult sons. The older son is a musician and a middle school band director; the younger–the adrenalin junkie–is a full-time firefighter and EMT. I am proud of them. John always gives me something to think about and challenges my brain. Aaron makes me smile at his actions. Then there is my daughter-in-law, who makes me so proud that she is willing to stand up for the marginalized people in our society. And my grandson, Sully, just makes me smile! He is three years old (he turns four in October). He is almost always happy.

Last spring, I started a very small book club. These ladies are so special. We share a love of books and good conversation. Our little group ranges in age from 18 to 80+ (I’m not sure how old Ms. Biba is). I look forward to our monthly meetings at the local coffee shop. Isabelle, the 18-year-old, gives us so much joy in her enthusiasm for books and the way she just fits in with our group of women who are old enough to be her grandmothers!

Ms. Biba and Shana have been my support group over the last couple of months as our church goes through some changes that are not necessarily the “best,” if I am to be honest. They have had my back, as it were, when I feel afraid to speak my truth. I am so thankful for them. Shana makes me laugh with her zaniness.

And so the April challenge begins.

Monday Musings–Remembering My Grandparents’ House

Every once in a while, a question on Facebook triggers something. Today, it was a question about what we remember about our grandparents’ house. I could write a chapter of a book about each of my grandparents’ homes.

Grandma and Granddaddy Wessinger lived in a “small” house. Granddaddy built the house for Grandma and custom-made certain parts of it just for her. Grandma was tiny, just barely five feet tall. Her kitchen was scaled just for her. It was a cozy kitchen. There was a wood-burning kitchen “warming” stove. That stove heated the kitchen in winter as well as cooked things like vegetables. The kitchen was also where the children ate. I can remember my oldest cousin being invited to eat in the dining room with the grown-ups. She was engaged to be married, and her fiance had come to eat with the family. Ginny declined the invitation. She and Wade ate in the kitchen with the rest of the cousins.

Naturally, the kitchen opened into the dining room and to the screened-in back porch. There was a bench on the porch where we often sat and played on rainy days. There was a sink on the porch as well. Granddaddy hung a metal dipper over the sink, and we all drank water from the dipper at some time or another. Uncle Lee’s room opened off the porch, too. We were not allowed to go into Uncle Lee’s room without his permission.

Another special room room was the “front room.” It was the formal living room or the parlor. Grandma had a Duncan-Fife sofa, a love seat, and an upright piano in that room, as well as her glass knick-knacks. She had a set of ceramic roosters. When we visited on most Sunday afternoons, we stayed in the den. We only visited as a family in the front room on Christmas. Grandma put her Christmas tree up in that front room. She had the most magical tree. Some of her ornaments bubbled. Granddaddy would roll dollar bills in Christmas paper and hang them on the tree. We thought we were rich when we took our rolls off the tree. (By the way, the “we” refers to my cousins, brother, sister, and me.)

This house burned in the fall of 1979 as a result of a chimney fire in the den. Although they rebuilt on the same sight, the new house was never quite the same as the one my Granddaddy built for his bride fifty years before (they were married in January 1930). When I remember going to see my grandparents, that white frame house is the one that I remember.

Currently. . . .

What have you been doing recently?

I have been keeping a variety of journals recently. I began last November with the No More Excuses art journal. To do this, you do a few things, some daily, and some weekly: draw the weather, color a block with a color of the day, and write a word of the day. I do the weather and the color, usually based on my mood or whatever color strikes my fancy. I’ve added my own element to the day’s work. For the month of April, I am drawing and coloring a flower a day.

Then the Documented Life Unplanner 2016 project came along, and I am adding elements of that to the art journal. At the same time, I discovered Teresa Robinson’s Right Brain Planner and glue booking. Then just a month ago, I found Fauxbonichi journaling, which is similar to art journaling and DLP and RBP, but focuses more on the words rather than the art, although art and creativity are a part of the fauxbonichi journlaing. By the way, there is a Facebook group for Fauxbonichi journalers that is just full of inspiration. In the latter journal, I have been keeping a list of “current” things, everything from my “to do’s” and “necessaries” to the things I eat during the day, and things I’ve accomplished for the day. This week, I am doing a “Currently” list.

This is what I have so far:

Currently,

I’m reading,

  • Rock with Wings by Anne Hillerman, daughter of Tony Hillerman, who wrote a series of novels about Joe Leaphorn and Jim Chee, Navajo policemen in New Mexico.
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  • This book is evocative of the American Southwest. Hillerman, like her father, is knowledgeable of the Southwest and the Navajo people.
  • Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert, author of Eat, Love, Pray, about living a creative life without fear
  • Creative Visualization for Photographers by Rick Sammon, about learning to see creatively

I’m learning

  • how to draw and sketch flowers, how to shade and color
  • how to create watercolor effects in Photoshop CS6 without using actions

I’m loving

  • the green-blues, such as teal and turquoise
  • { flora palette } image via: @thediaryofdi
  • What is on your “currently” list?